A little bit of relief each time

I do not like to feel unprepared when it comes to AF. I like to make sure my purse has the necessities for it and when to start watching out for it. Being that I'm not charting this month, I wanted to count 28 days to figure out when to start the look out process. I didn't do it for any other reason, however, once I counted out the 28 days and saw day 27 & 28 were Saturday and Sunday, my next thought was about testing. As stupid as this sounds, I haven't even mentioned it to James for fear of jinxing myself and AF showing up early. I keep praying this is our cycle. I guess we'll see Saturday morning. Since my cycle was only 25 days last month, I figured day 27 would be a good day to test. (Of course I won't know how many dpo's I am but oh well)

I have that weird "feeling" AF might be coming. The feeling that I've started, but there's nothing there. I've felt a little bit of relief each time I've gone to the bathroom b/c I haven't started yet. Half the time that relief is followed by a little prayer asking God to bless our marriage with a baby. All in all, though, this cycle has been at least 50% less crazy. Let me rephrase. I'VE been at least 50% less crazy this cycle. Taking it easy this cycle has been good for me. If we're not pregnant this time, I'm taking another month off from charting. It's been good for my mental health. I'm not creating phantom symptoms so I'm happy about that. I've felt extremely exhausted yesterday and today and of course the first thought was symptom but I quickly shot that down. My pants fit tighter today than they did last week when I wore them and as much as I wanted it to be a phantom symptom, I know it was just the birthday cheesecake I've had. I'm hoping for the next 3 days I'll remain as calm as I have stayed and Saturday will come with no AF and I'll test and see the two beautiful most precious pink lines ever!!