Praise You in this Storm

I was driving home from my sister's house tonight after watching U of L play like crap and was listening to a Casting Crowns cd. I was just "jamming" along and the song "Praise You in this Storm" came on. The music in the song is so powerful that it gives me chills every time I listen to it. Today, the words brought tears to my eyes. It often does when I haven't listened to it in a while, but today, it just hit home in a new way. As we are approaching the end of cycle 10, we don't know if yet again it will end in disappointment and bring along with it all the questions of why or if it will actually end with a positive test telling us we're pregnant. The end of cycle 10 is extremely close to cycle 12 which means 1 year of trying to get pregnant with no success. That is frightening and heartbreaking. This runs through my head all the time. Now that I'm anticipating the end of my cycle within the week, the I might be pregnant b/c of that symptom is starting. I'm trying very hard not to focus on that (and with us looking at new homes it's easier than expected). Those thoughts still cross my mind throughout the day. This is my struggle. This is my storm. My heart is torn b/c I trust in Him and have faith we'll have our own child, but it may not be His will. The song's in my playlist but here are the words.

Praise You In This Storm lyrics

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm