Trying to stay relaxed

Yesterday I got a phone call from my dr's office saying my TSH levels were normal but the dr did feel something on my thyroid and wants an ultrasound done. It's scheduled for Wednesday. I talked to a friend who's a nurse and she said it's no big deal, if there is something there, it can be controlled with meds. I also talked to a speech therapist at work and she basically said the same thing. I tend to get worked up when it comes to medical stuff. I can make myself very nervous and freak out before getting all of the information. I'm trying very hard not to do that.

I want to relax this 2ww, but I'm finding myself struggling with that. I want more than anything for this to be our cycle, but I don't want to let little things get me worked up. Putting things out of my head only works for a little while and then when I'm not thinking about things, here they come again. I don't want this to be another one of those cycles where I've convinced myself that I am only to find out I am not. However, I feel like all the signs are pointing to yes, all the dots are connecting. Yup, sounds like I'm convincing myself I am. Let me lay it out to get it out of my head and once seeing it written, I'll realize how crazy I am.

A)My friend Brande really got to me when she called the other night. Telling me she thinks I'm going to get pregnant this cycle when I'm already hopeful, she's just fueling the fire. I hadn't talked to her in several weeks and for her to call me up like that, it's just ironic. B)I had a sharp pain in my lower abdomen on my right side. It had a dull pain for about a day in the same spot. I'm calling it a cramp but it didn't feel like my "usual" AF cramp. C)My boobs are extremely sensitive and heavy. D)I just feel different this cycle. E)I'm praying that b/c Shannon, Lindsey and I are all testing the same time this cycle so I'm thinking we're good luck charms for each other.
Ok, now that I have that out of my system, let me argue what I just said.
A)So what she called. A friend can call out of the blue and it mean nothing more than she just wanted to call and say Good Luck. B)You had a cramp or maybe gas pains. It doesn't mean you're pregnant, it means you had a pain. C)Your boobs are sore almost every month. It's not a symptom of anything other than being a woman. D)You feel different b/c you want to feel different. There's nothing more to it. E)Good Luck to us all!!

Ok, I feel better.