Father's Day

So it's Father's day and I'm struggling with the notion, to test or not to test. I'm 10dpo and know if I tested it would be negative, but just the slight chance of getting to tell James Happy Father's Day makes me want to put the computer down and run to the bathroom. I'm trying to hold off until Thursday. We'll see if I make it all day without testing. If I had a dollar tree test I would've already tested, but the thought of wasting the "expensive" first response makes me hesitant. I guess this is what I have to look forward to all day.

Yesterday my sister and her husband got a dog. A little miniature pincher named Chief. We went to Feeder's Supply to get all the necessary items and Kelly was just going crazy wanting to get this and that. She kept saying you're going to be my spoiled little baby. It was so cute. Watching her made me think of how I wish that was me, getting ready to spoil my baby. Then when I was on my way home I was listening to my ipod and Sara Evan's "Backseat of a Greyhound Bus" came on. I love that song and was singing along until I broke down crying. She sang, "on the backseat of a greyhound heart so full that it could bust, staring at the rest of her life" tears just starting streaming down my face. I wasn't really thinking of anything, just singing, but I guess that part just got to me b/c I want that. I want to have my heart full of love for our little baby knowing that he/she is the center of our world. I never expected to ever cry on that song, but it just hit me last night. Thanks a lot Sara Evans.